I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night, I miss the way we sleep. Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile, I miss the way we breathe. But I never told you, what I should have said. No I never told you, I just held it in.
I want to wake up next to you, eat breakfast with you, get changed with you, play computer games with you, watching movies with you in bed, hold your hand and watch tv, send you cute texts, buy you gifts, nap together, wear your comfy hoody when i'm cold, look into your eyes, be with you at sunrise and sunset, cook for you, walk in the rain with you, fall asleep whilst on the phone to you, snuggle in bed, mess up your hair, kiss you goodnight.
this isn't about who you were. this is about who you are. it's not about where you've been and what you've done. as for me, i've been some dark places and done some pretty questionable things. but as of this moment, right now, why should all of that matter? this isn't about what happened or what's going to. it's about who you are and who you've become. it's about right now. so don't let the past bother you and don't let the future worry you. laugh right now. love right now. live right now.
i really really really hate when guys say gross things to me. what the fuck. i do not care what you think i look like naked or anything of the sort. i do not give a shit if you want to have sex with me or thought about me while doing yucky things to yourself. i don’t like being portrayed that way. sure, call me immature. but i dont like it. and even if you think it, why would you ever say it to me. it’s awkward and stupid and gross. ewwwy.
yes, i just sounded like a five year old. good. i’d rather it that way.
Who wants the perfect guy? Not me. I don’t want anyone perfect. I don’t want anyone normal, thats just boring. I want someone weird. I want someone unpredictable. I want someone who lets things slide and who loves to laugh and makes me laugh. I want someone who will be crazy about me, and isn’t afraid to let everyone know it. I want him to be able to tell me to shut the hell up when I am bugging him. I want someone who challenges me, in every way. I want someone who puts up with my shit, but isnt a pushover. I want someone who pisses me off, but I can never be mad at. But perfect? That’s one thing I never want. Maybe just perfect for me.
“I want to let you in on a secret: I’m not who you think I am. In fact, my disguise is so thin, I’m surprised you haven’t seen right through me. I’m the girl of your dreams, masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes, I want to rip off this facade, but I can’t because you’ll get scared and run away. So, I’ve decided that it’s better to live with a lie than expose my true feelings. I’ve been told that there are two types of girls: the ones you grow out of, and the ones you grow into. I hope I’m the latter. I may not be the one you love today, and that hurts, but I’ll let you go for now, hoping that, one day, you’ll fly back to me… because I think you’re worth the wait.”—Smallville (via raindropsonredroses)